{"id":145,"date":"2013-04-11T01:09:12","date_gmt":"2013-04-11T01:09:12","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.slowbloom.com\/blog\/?p=145"},"modified":"2013-04-11T01:09:12","modified_gmt":"2013-04-11T01:09:12","slug":"i-know-where-i-am","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.slowbloom.com\/blog\/2013\/04\/i-know-where-i-am\/","title":{"rendered":"I Know Where I Am"},"content":{"rendered":"

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The last month or so I’ve been working with the idea that I know how to protect myself. This came up just last weekend, when a man I’d never met attempted to engage me in conversation in a public setting by telling me that he followed me. Immediately a red flag went up. There were people around me and I wasn’t worried for my safety. When he asked if he could sit with me, I just said, “No, I’m busy.” And he left.<\/p>\n

In my yoga classes, we’ve been focused on handstand. I probably write about handstand more than any other pose because it induces such intense reactions for me. I suppose some people would say it’s juicy<\/em>. On Monday, once I was upside-down, I went to the panic place. This is where I feel like I don’t know what the fuck is going on, which way is what and so on. And then I heard this little voice say, “You know how to protect yourself.”<\/em> And then I thought: I know where I am.<\/strong> So when I came down, it was not out of a panic, but out of certainty. I’ve been exploring this pose for 13 years and this may be the first time I’ve ever experienced it that way.<\/p>\n

In my class today I had another opportunity to try this out. The entire time I was going up I thought, “I know where I am.” And I did, it was true. And while the pose was intense and required my full concentration, I wasn’t panicking. I hope I can keep remembering this the next time I start to panic about something.<\/p>\n

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