{"id":861,"date":"2016-09-20T19:49:05","date_gmt":"2016-09-21T02:49:05","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.slowbloom.com\/blog\/?p=861"},"modified":"2016-09-20T19:49:05","modified_gmt":"2016-09-21T02:49:05","slug":"i-am-not-writing","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.slowbloom.com\/blog\/2016\/09\/i-am-not-writing\/","title":{"rendered":"I am not writing"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a data-flickr-embed=\"true\"  href=\"https:\/\/www.flickr.com\/photos\/jillbertini\/29197594884\/in\/dateposted-public\/\" title=\"Bark\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/c5.staticflickr.com\/9\/8848\/29197594884_38af746e81.jpg\" width=\"375\" height=\"500\" alt=\"Bark\"><\/a><script async src=\"\/\/embedr.flickr.com\/assets\/client-code.js\" charset=\"utf-8\"><\/script><\/p>\n<p>I am not writing about another man with black skin who was shot and killed by a person in a uniform and I\u2019m not writing about the man with orange hair who spouts words like a whale exhales. I\u2019m not writing about the thousands and hundreds of thousands of people who are displaced from their homes due to violence or due to flooding or drought, famine or pestilence or illness. I\u2019m not writing about the woman running, running, running and still being judged as not being good enough. I\u2019m not writing about the men kneeling in silent dissent nor the men yelling as spittle flies off their lips. I\u2019m not writing about my city apportioning dollars to lock up more youth and spend more money on militarizing the police.<\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m not writing about how the words all turn into lumps in my throat, because I get to be comfortable and I do not have to give children lessons in how to navigate a system that would rather they are dead. <\/p>\n<p>I\u2019m not writing about the lessons I learned growing up, as a Jewish child, about Auschwitz and Hitler and Nazis. I repeat the stories about people being rounded up, being catalogued and herded on trains. I always wondered why people never did anything, even when they knew. But I know what is happening and I have no fucking clue how to change it. I despair. I fear I\u2019m a coward. <\/p>\n<p>I bear witness to countless stories, the refrains echo, and the chorus grows bigger. My heart continues to break, beyond what I thought possible. This is not my pain. I don\u2019t have answers. <\/p>\n<p>I am not writing, but I am listening.<\/p>\n<div style=\"padding-bottom:20px; padding-top:10px;\" class=\"hupso-share-buttons\"><!-- Hupso Share Buttons - https:\/\/www.hupso.com\/share\/ --><a class=\"hupso_pop\" href=\"https:\/\/www.hupso.com\/share\/\"><img decoding=\"async\" src=\"https:\/\/static.hupso.com\/share\/buttons\/button100x23.png\" style=\"border:0px; width:100; height: 23; \" alt=\"Share Button\" \/><\/a><script type=\"text\/javascript\">var hupso_services=new Array(\"Twitter\",\"Facebook\",\"Linkedin\",\"StumbleUpon\",\"Reddit\",\"Print\");var hupso_icon_type = \"labels\";var hupso_background=\"#EAF4FF\";var hupso_border=\"#66CCFF\";var hupso_image_folder_url = \"\";var hupso_url=\"\";var hupso_title=\"I%20am%20not%20writing\";<\/script><script type=\"text\/javascript\" src=\"https:\/\/static.hupso.com\/share\/js\/share.js\"><\/script><!-- Hupso Share Buttons --><\/div>","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I am not writing about another man with black skin who was shot and killed by a person in a uniform and I\u2019m not writing about the man with orange hair who spouts words like a whale exhales. 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