I have intense, vivid dreams. They could almost be movies, they are so involved. I know, there is a rule somewhere that no one on the internet is interested in hearing about your dreams, so don’t share them. So, you’ve been warned. I’m going to tell you about a dream I had.
I was running down a stairwell, down down down. Running away from people who were chasing me. And in my hand I held an elaborate skeleton key. This wasn’t any old key. Oh no. It was The Key to Destruction. MY destruction. And in order to be saved, all I had to do was release the key. I merely had to open my hand and the people pursuing me would stop. But here’s the kicker. Do you want to know what this key unlocked? A small cupboard with a picture of Salvador Dali on his high school football team.
I often think of this dream, of how hard it is for me to release the clutching, the grasping, even when it might be destroying me. I was reminded of the quote: Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional. I might amend that to: Pain is inevitable, struggling is optional. I am getting help in identifying these thought patterns that no longer serve me. I am holding the vision that I will open my hand and when I see my fingers curling back in, I can gently uncurl them again.
Do you think your mind reveals what you are defending to shock you into releasing it?
Did this “unlock” what you are grasping, or did you already know?
I don’t really have a theory of dreams. I have a lot of very intense, vivid dreams. I don’t usually try to impose any meaning on them. I had this dream a long time ago. If anything, it only revealed how stubborn I am, holding on to things long after they’ve served their use. I wish I had more clarity as to what those habits/patterns/etc. actually were.
No, I don’t bother with a book version of dream interpretation. Sometimes a dream is so obvious that I wake up going SHIT girl, that’s IT!